CHIONG AH.
till 3rd people.

i know i get bored easily. haha.
that equals to short attention span.
and now's the exam period.
gotta settle alumni stuff. urgh.
tedious and there's no way out.
a vicious cycle that im caught in the middle of.
that aside, work has been....math. haha.
shiat. i have 5 other modules. gotta touch on the rest soon.
I.WILL.FINISH.MATH.TODAY.
ta.

//was irritated.dunno why. stop fickling. be yourself.

was reading back entries.
i just realised the last time i met brian was my birthday. HAHA.
oh well. if it's meant to be, somehow we'll contact again.
like how we did one year later.

one more test before mugging for final exams.
I.NEED.TO.STUDY.
i need motivation. well, i do.haha. the fear of getting kicked out of school.
and gotta settle the alumni day stuff.
restrictions are irritating luh. 

i miss talking to you. like properly without awkwardness.
guess that will take quite awhile huh.

im smiling as i read my eg1108 notes.
not cos its easy, but cos of the scribblings of hafiz and zeya last sem.
i miss taking the same classes as them.

this is the last week of school. and its full steam ahead till exams are over.
i cannot screw this up.
there's no way but UP from here on.

its funny that i wanted to blog yest about how people judge so easily,
but i knew that it was in a fit of anger that i wanted to blog.
recalling, its an issue that can never be resolved.
people judge. it's in their human nature. bleah.
tiring to keep up aye. just let go. let go.
of expectations of people and just embrace who they are.
the world will be a better place.

just to let people know that im still alive and well.
exams are coming. =/
i wont regret, i dont.

i think when i need an avenue to express my thoughts or when something isnt going right/ not the norm/ not usual, i tend to blog alot.
so yeah infer.
i dont know why i feel so fustrated.
time to keep to recluse.
i didnt follow it today.
no wonder i felt off.
not doing something i told myself to.

it shall be on my whiteboard.

everything has to happen in the same week.
why god.
why didnt you protect.
why did it happen.
why.

i cant answer them, and i dont want to think about them.
i feel so...urgh. i was going to use a verb but it'll attract too many attention.
i need...
i need time alone.space.a corner.to clear my thoughts,clear everything out.
which is here, my space.

im sorry i keep going to you.
knowing that it might hurt.
im sorry if it seems as tho im making use of you.

recluse.
from now on. 29/10

daniel where are you. WHY MUST YOU GO TO AUSTRALIA AND EVERYTHING STARTS TO HAPPEN IN SG.
but i doubt u read my blog. =( 

//if u read all the way, dont ask. just read.

i hate that everything has to be complicated.
why cant everything be simple.
i always choose the easy way out.
but i cant this time.
i hate that relationships are so fragile.
i hate that i cant seem to find a way out.
well, cept i met up with charles and got my advice.
and finally, i hate to make someone upset..

and i think that's my main problem.
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too much...negativity.
anw,
late night meet-up with charles was good.
no change, same old same old.
random catch up session.

time to face the music. sigh.